Lately, I’ve been given a crash course in the art of balancing. It has come out of pain, mounting stress, and letting beloved friends down, which starts the whole cycle over. Balance, though, is something to be sought after. Like perfection, it is never attained. Life is ever changing. There are light seasons where it’s easy to remain stable, but when new things are added, good and bad, either slowly or all at once, you can find yourself fumbling on the wire.
About eight months ago I was in a completely different season. It was one of being, being still, being quiet, being focused, being responsive, being chill. I had excessive time for friends and serving. I was seeking the Lord fully. It was a beautiful time. And oh how I needed it. I needed that stillness to allow the Lord to shape my world for me instead of buzzing around opportunities like a busy bee. Looking back, I see how important that still quiet season was, because now my life became increasingly more and more busy. Good things just kept getting handed to me until I found myself with my arms full of a new job, a new relationship, and new opportunities for serving on top of my old constants. Now I feel like I have barely enough time to breath. It is easy for our lives to become imbalanced when things start to pick up and we become busier.
Our lives are overloaded with God, Church, serving, friends, significant others, family, work, and hobbies. Equilibrium is delicate to maintain, impossible really, and that’s something we need to acknowledge. Balance is an ever elusive, ever fleeting state. To expect ourselves and others to always be balanced is placing a pressure of perfect expectation that is crippling and unattainable. We need the grace for one another and ourselves when our lives suddenly shift and we momentarily become imbalanced.
We need to shift from the idea of “balance” the noun to “balancing,” the verb. Balancing, after all, is an action and state of being. There are times of struggle and fail, but times of steadiness and wins. But striving towards balancing requires readjusting and keeping your eye focused on Jesus. Recovering into a state of steadiness is directly linked to our time spent with the Father, seeking his presence and bringing him into every facet of our lives. So really, when my life becomes imbalanced, it is because I have neglected that solitude and communion with Jesus. I’ve taken my uneven yoke upon myself, rather than laying it at the base of the cross.
Life is a balancing act. Living a constant perfectly balanced life is a lie. Give yourself and others the grace within change and always seek to adjust. We will teeter from side to side, but Jesus always puts us upright again.